2010. I actually got around to it.

Funny, I've been thinking about a good New Years Eve post for a few days, but, as I finally find the time to write it, I've forgotten what it was I wanted to say.  I've been thinking a lot about the health care debate going on in my country, and that's all I want to post about.  Maybe it'll come back to me with what John posted about the other day.  PS.  I love John.  Heterosexual guy love. 

I'm going to quote him.

As the new year approaches it is time for all of us to make unrealistic and half-full promises to ourselves of what the new year will bring. As you make these "resolutions" you are well aware that you will not come close to accomplishing most of these easily attainable goals you set for yourself.

He goes on to explain why he thinks we make these resolutions. It makes us feel good to promise ourselves things, we are a dishonest species, and we're more concerned with self image than anything else. All good points. He also says:

I propose the new New Year tradition... "The New Year If I Get Around To It." I'm going to lose weight..If I Get Around To It. I'm going to get in shape... If I Get Around To It.

Makes sense.  I definitely understand what he is saying, and I agree.  I just don't know if that approach works for me.  Sure, I'll avoid the failure, but, I'm not going to get anywhere either.  John's approach works for him because he is so busy.  I'm busy, but, maybe busy with the wrong things.  Before I read John's post, I had been thinking about resolutions.  There are a few things I want to focus on, but, I don't want to make a cliche New Years Resolution.  Let's face it, I'm concerned with my image, and I'm not one to be cliche.  How cliche is that?

It gets worse.  One of things I want to focus on this year is caring less of what people thing of me, and doing things I want to do.  But I'm posting a blog about it.  I care so much about what people think of me, that I'm actually making it a public goal to care less.  How many eyeshadow-ed 16 year-olds have said the same thing?  Bang.  Another cliche.

Another thing I was to focus on?  Losing weight.  I want to be more active, do more thing, and not worry about my weight getting in the way. Cliche number.. 3 or 4 or something.  I'm not even keeping track.   But really, I want to, regardless of whether it's New Years or not.  A silly resolution isn't going to do it for me.  I need to put some skin in the game. I need a challenge, or a reward.  Someone challenge me.  Or reward me.  Whatever.

Reading.  I buy books all the time.  I want to read more. I suck at it. (Self depreciation.  Derek Cliche.)  I'm hoping with my promotion, I'm going to be able to read a bit while I travel.  Maybe that will get me so excited for what I'm reading, I'll want to do it more in my leisure time.  Seriously, I just need to know that it's really worth it, and I'll keep doing it.  Maybe not.  I think I know it's worth it.  Maybe I just need to create the habit.

Speaking of habits, How about I stop picking my lip?  Seriously.  I've done it for 12 years?   Half of my life up to this point.  That's about enough.  This thought is a Derek Cliche.  I've been saying this for year.  I honestly think it's affecting my health now.  I had a weird mouth condition on my trip to Wisconsin last week.  Doctors say it was a "Weakened Immune System"  I can't imagine a disgusting hand digging into my skin repeatedly does wonders for the immune system.  I'm no scientist, but, really, come on.  It can't be good.

Anyway, that's good for now.  I'm glad I got this written.  Putting it off would have been another Derek Cliche.  I don't think I can afford another one.  Ok.  One more.  Talk to you next year!!!  (Yep.  That just happened.)